Cup of Chinese

and how is  this crappy...? i like the way it has those "brushstrokes". it looks.. how do i describe this? kind of like a messy, but not like a IT'S-EVERYWHERE-AAAAAHHHHHH messy, but it's this kinda fuzzy feeling. it looks like how in some flashbacks things are a bit blurry for the dramatic effect, i like that. it kind of gives this "cozy", or "warm" or "soft" feeling. like something inside me is warming me up. just like tea.  
lol i edited this like 4 or 5 times already since i'm trying to figure out this feeling.